Conquer Fear And Achieve Dreams
Sometimes you just have to conquer your fears to achieve your dreams.
Now, it was never my dream to take an administrative assistant diploma. As a child and a teen I dreamt I was going to be a teacher, a nurse, a university professor, a computer programmer but never a librarian or a secretary.
But life happens.
And dreams change.
You need to learn to embrace the changes and challenges that come your way.
When the opportunity to take a position as a library specialist at my former high school opened up I was strongly encouraged to apply for it. I researched the field and the courses that I would have to take. I impressed the interviewers and was quickly hired. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would ever be a librarian. It turned out it was the perfect occupation for me.
Then, I started a family. Commuting to work was taking a toll. I was too tired to play with my toddler. And between daycare, vehicle upkeep and other costs, it just wasn’t financially wise to keep working. So we made the decision for me to stay home.
Throughout the years of being a stay-at-home mom I worked part-time in various positions. I worked a few contract jobs from home. And I also worked as a childcare provider for an early learning program at one of the local schools a couple mornings a week.
But it wasn’t enough. I needed a challenge. And I missed learning.
Living in a small remote community the job market here is slim. There are only a handful of library positions and each one is taken by those who will not be retiring any time soon. I began to research distance education programs that interested me and fields where there would or should be more opportunity for me to find employment.
I started looking at administrative assistant programs because I felt it fit my personality best. I found a few schools and programs that I liked. However, each required me to complete a practicum. I tried my hardest to find one that didn’t have a work experience but I had no luck.
I finally settled on a college and started taking my courses. I excelled in each one. But there was one I was dreading… the practicum.
With my history of anxiety I was terrified it was going to ruin the experience for me. I had it in the back of my mind that I was going to fail the practicum and thus, my entire program. I had no confidence in myself. But at some point I realized I had to turn my thoughts around. I had to buck up and face the practicum head on.
That is exactly what I did. I overcame my fear and had a wonderful experience during my four week practicum. Did I mistakes? Yes. Did I have an anxiety attack on my first day? Yes. Did I embarrass myself? No. I told my coworkers and the employer what was happening and they embraced me anyway. From that day forward, I just put one foot in front of the other and met the challenge.
If I hadn’t done my practicum, I would not have the confidence to enter a new workplace like I do now. I thought I would never be able to work for anyone but my former employer (as it was kind of like a security blanket for me). But now I know I can! And I can succeed! Further, I wouldn’t have met my wonderful coworkers. I had fun getting to know each one of them.
Now, I am proud to say I am officially graduated from the Administrative Assistant and Bookkeeping program!
Life is sometimes not what we expect it to be. Dreams change as we change.
If I can conquer my fears and achieve my dreams, so can you!