Ottawa #OttawaStrong #CanadaStrong

Brandy

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I am still processing my thoughts and feelings on the tragic shooting¬†that took place in our nation’s capital of Ottawa yesterday.

I first heard the news on Twitter and like many others, I could not believe it. Then, I feared for my family members and friends who live in and around the Ottawa area. I later found out they were all OK and a wave of relief washed over me. However, I was still on edge.

I thought this cannot be happening in our country. We pride ourselves on being one of the safest countries in the world. But in the last little while that fact has been proven to be untrue. The events that unfolded in Moncton this past June taught us that we are not immune. And just a few short days ago a two soldiers were targeted and one needlessly killed. These types of tragedies can happen here and sadly, probably will continue to do so. Unfortunately, it seems to be a way of life now.

As a person who suffers from anxiety, and for any person who suffers from mental illness, these tragedies can be very traumatizing. Some days it is hard enough to leave the house and go about our daily lives just like any other “normal” person. Tragic events like these make us second guess and analyze every little move we make. We fear for the next bad thing that is going to happen. It paralyzes us to the core. For instance, every time I get on a plane since 9/11 I cannot help but think what if? What if that person sitting next to me or a few rows ahead has other plans for us? It’s not only acts of terrorism that come across my mind. What if the engine fails? What if there is a fire? The scary thoughts continue to flood in.

I would be remiss if I did not say that I am scared to enter a mall or public place. I was just in the city following the Blissdom conference. Usually I enter a public place without a second thought. But the last few years with the media sensationalizing events such as these I cannot help but think about what could happen if someone entered this mall with a gun and thoughts of killing us all.

We should not have to feel fear every time we leave the house. But many of us do now. It is our right to be able to go to work and feel safe. To go to school and feel safe. To pop into the mall to do a bit of shopping and feel safe. To visit the library and feel safe. But lately, we are not safe anywhere.

However, I have decided that I will not let one person’s actions dictate my own. I will not let this and other acts of terror stop me from living my life. It is my life and I will live it free of fear. It is my right to feel safe in my own country, my own province and my own home. Yes, the thoughts will always be there. But I will take steps to fill my head with good thoughts. How there are way more good people out there than bad.

I will not think about the man who inflicted terror on our nation. He shall remain nameless as he does not deserve anymore attention.

Instead, I will think of the people who ran to Cpl. Nathan Cirillo’s side yesterday and tried to save him. I will think about our Sergeant-at-Arms Kevin Vickers and how he acted out of bravery to prevent more needless deaths. I will think of our brave Royal Canadian Mounted Police, city police service in Ottawa and around the country, as well as many other first responders who put themselves in the line of fire to help us each and everyday. They are the true heroes of this story.

My sincere condolences go out to Cpl. Nathan Cirillo’s family and friends. He will forever remain in our hearts and we thank him and his family for his service.

Canada is our country. My country. I am proud to live in my province and country. We will not live in fear of the next bad thing. We will continue on.

We are strong. #CanadaStrong


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Author:
Brandy Reid is a stay at home mom to two very active and hockey obsessed boys. As a former YA librarian, Brandy loves to read and is obsessed with reading everyday whether it be books or blogs. Brandy proudly admits that she is a wee bit addicted to social media, especially Twitter. She also believes that everything in life you can related to the iconic TV Show Friends. No day is complete without chocolate.

10 Comments

  1. Sandy,
    October 23, 2014 at 10:27 AM

    Great post Brandy and I think it captures the way many of us feel. I know many people who can go on about their usual business today, and kudos to them. I’m trying but am finding it very difficult. I know we have to but it sure is with a heavy heart I do so. Thanks for sharing your thoughts xo

    • Brandy
      October 27, 2014 at 1:32 PM

      I cannot imagine how those of you who actually live in Ottawa are feeling. But life must go on and we must not live in fear every time we step out our doors.

  2. CanadianMomEh
    CanadianMomEhReply
    October 23, 2014 at 11:42 AM

    Wonderful post Brandy. Thanks for sharing. It’s so important for us to never let the despicable actions of a violent human being stop us from living our lives. There were so many heroes yesterday and they deserve to be honoured

    • Brandy
      October 27, 2014 at 1:31 PM

      Yes, so many brave heroes! I love reading about who stepped up to the plate to help the soldier and people who were so very brave inside the parliament buildings. Thank you for stopping by to read my thoughts and feelings.

  3. Raina
    RainaReply
    October 23, 2014 at 2:54 PM

    Thanks for yet another great post, Brandy! It was a surreal day for many of my colleagues in NCR and the effects were felt across the nation. These tragic and alarming events have forced us to reflect on our collective safety and security. Today we go to work with heavy hearts and hope that we stay Canada strong.

    • Brandy
      October 27, 2014 at 1:30 PM

      I am still in shock over what happened. It does seem so surreal that events like these can take place in our country.

  4. Jaime Morrow
    October 23, 2014 at 4:19 PM

    What a beautiful post. I think many of our fellow Canadians are feeling much the same way in the wake of yesterday’s–this week’s–events. Thank you for posting such a thoughtful response.

    • Brandy
      October 27, 2014 at 1:29 PM

      Thank you so much for reading my response. It felt good to say how I was feeling.

  5. peady
    October 27, 2014 at 7:52 PM

    Terrific post, Brandy.

    Such a sad day and the events that followed in the days following were sadder still. Heartbreaking tributes, Highway of Heroes, rescue dogs left behind and mourning families. It’s too much. :(

    Ottawa is a beautiful city filled with many people who love it. I hope life can return to normal soon.

    • Brandy
      October 29, 2014 at 12:22 AM

      I hope that life can return to normal soon too. Ottawa is definitely a beautiful city and it has part of heart (even before this tragic event took place). I will keep everyone involved and/or affected in my thoughts.

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